Chemo sucks

Dear Shell,

As I mentioned earlier, my Grandma started Chemo again. They ended up putting in a port to make it easier to do the Chemo, since they were having issues with sticking needles in her veins. I talked to mom tonight, and she said that Grandma is getting real sick again from the Chemo. The first time she was on Chemo, she ended up in the hospital because she was so sick from it. She couldn't eat anything and her mouth was raw. I'm scared she's going to end up in the hospital again.

I went to see her when she was in the hospital the first time, and at my first glance, it looked like an empty bed, then I saw her face nestled into the curve of the pillow. Even as sick as she was, she knew who I was right away and even managed to do a small wave with her hand. I visited her again about a week later when she was starting to feel better and her skin was healthier looking. Still very pale, but she didn't look like a ghost anymore.

I haven't visited her since she's been home from the hospital. With her being so sick and going through the chemo, she can't have any germs brought around her if at all possible. And since I'm sick a lot myself, I haven't wanted to risk bringing germs over to her home and making her worse. It's driving me crazy not being able to go see her, but I don't want to put her life at more risk by stopping by.

She's a very strong woman. She was diagnosed with Kidney cancer back in the spring, and she is still fighting. She's not giving up like so many other people do. Her and Grandpa even have plans for going back to Florida once this latest round of Chemo is done. I don't know if she'll put herself through more Chemo after this round, it depends on how successful it is at beating back the cancer. But she's definitely someone to admire, for her strength and her courage in this battle.

I know she doesn't read this, but I'll say it here anyway. I love you and admire you Grandma.

Shell